Posts : 238
Join date : 2020-09-28
Age : 54
Location : Worland, WY. 82401
|A long tough road...|| |
The road back from depression is long for me, and can only be achieved through professional medical help. So, I finally took the responsibility to make a doctor appointment finally; just this past week.
I started on Paxil Monday night. And by Wednesday and Thursday, I can already notice small differences. More motivated to do housework, not emotional eating the past few days either. Getting up earlier. Not sleeping in until the last possible moment that I absolutely have to get up or I'll be late for work *lol* So thats cool.
This is the 1st time I've been on the computer to really do anything in two months.
I've been holding so much in for the past 2 years +
And it had just gotten worse and worse and worse. Pretty much the last straw was my CNA (nursing) friend of 15 years dying the day after christmas. I really shut down big time after that.
It's been leaving my husband - a 33 year relationship. 1st and biggest mistake after that, I see now was NOT going into counseling. And that is something major that my new doctor talked to me about. Getting back on an anti-depressant will help. But they are not magic pills...
Also my thyroid might just require a higher Rx. I've been on 50 micrograms
for over 3 years. Soooo... then ya know theres just all the dumb annoying work stuff, the virus... So, I just decided it is time to get my ME BACK!
I started exercising. As I have probably gained 50 lbs or more since moving out on my own and getting divorced. I don't even know if it helps, or makes it worse that he's still kind of in my life. ya know... *shrugs* We don't hook up or anything but he wishes me merry xmas, happy birthday... Invites me to breakfast, lunch whatever when he and our son come out to where I live.
i dont know...